Yes, i admit i have that. Ive tried my very best to not let it take over me. But it seemed rather impossible. My self-confidence was never this low. It all started with some rude comments that was thrown to me. Those comments are not only thrown by the “haters” but also from my loved ones(sucks right?). I dont really share this with anyone because i think that no one would actually care. I did try though. All they do was say “oh”. Erm, thats not helping. Keeping all these to myself isnt better afterall. I hate to see myself in the mirror because all i see is someone who is ugly both inside out. I recently share this with the bestfriend(apple). She did listen to everything i have to say and ya, i know she cant do much but to listen. Im the one who have to change the way i think. I have to try to think positive(impossible?). Shockingly, i shared this with boyfriend. Er, i dont talk about this kind of things with the opposite sex. But since he wants to know, i did, share. “I tengok you okay je pe.” Er b, thats what YOU think. Not me. When can i eventually stop thinking this way? Urgh, i have no idea. I still love myself though.. I mean at least with my imperfections, im still loved(im trying to think positive). I feel insecured at times(always). This sucks. Im trying my best to overcome this feelings. Trying to gain back my self-confidence. I know i can. I will try to love myself. :’)
Low self esteem.
Kawan makan kawan.
Thats common right? Urgh! I hate this kind of hypocritical bitches. You should jolly well fuck off from my life. Whats the point telling MY stories to your friend? I mean she wasn’t your friend when you are with me. You bitch around about her. I should have known this would happen right? Ya, silly me. *Sigh* Okay, promise i wont keep any grudges towards any of you(i dont mean it). xoxo.
